A place called sanctuary

A place called Sanctuary

Have you tried to be in a place where you can feel the core of your being? Where you can feel very relaxing? Feel the summer breeze and hear the chirping birds. After long busy days due to all demands, responsibilities and obligations you have. You want to escape for awhile from the hustle and hectic schedules. You want to find a special place where you can ruminate. For me, I found already that place, the place which is economical and no need to cost you for room fees like any other vacation or hotel rooms. Place that I felt the same way as I am in the Philippines. That is comfortable and having privacy. When I am in the Philippines I want to be in my room where I can be alone and read.

 From the all-day doing my household chores, I felt tired and exhausted. The house is two level floors. It is kind of huge home for me to clean all alone. I need to have a rest after I’ve done cleaning and my favorite place is my room downstairs.  This is the smallest room from the three bedrooms of the house. So, I make it my special room where I can relax. This is my sanctuary, and I called this a sanctuary literally for it gives me contentment.

Every time I am in my room I feel joy, safe, mellow and contented. Basically, I can feel every single moment and fully present which I can think of clearly. I can find inner peace and truly express myself well here. I can do what ever I want to do without hesitations and distractions from the outside.  

This is what my room looks and feels like….

The door was located southeast part of a room where it stayed opens for air circulations. I always have fresh air from the garden at the back of the home, where you can smell the lavender that I planted.

As I enter my room, the huge two door mirror closet catches attention first where it is located in front or at the west wall. As you enter, the right side of the door is a Chinese woman artwork with frame which seems elegant and sexy.  Her dress and big fan feather in her hand are pink. Black circle at the center with gold surrounded the circle as her background.

            I enjoy seeing myself at the mirror while watching television or reading books, newspapers and magazines. My television is a brand new 21 inches flat screen; it is kind of exciting for me to play with the remote controller. The television was hanged at the wall and it has hinges for easy change in position of the television. I have freedom to choose what channel I am going to watch. I am very happy to set it to my favorite channel which is the HGTV channel 59. I feel at ease and taste satisfaction when I watch this channel.

 Below the television is a small table which I covered with plain black and white fabric where I put the clock and radio cassette. I can turn on and listen to different kinds of music depends on my mood. I love to sit or lay down comfortably with my black soft couch that you can still smell the brand new odor of it. I love to lay down here while watching or reading, because it is near from the window where I can smell the plants from the outside especially when it is raining; the fresh earthly breeze.

             

The window has a vertical blinds and white soft cotton curtains. At the left side of the couch, I put my books and magazines for easy access every time I want to read. At the right side is a small table that has a black and white fabric covers also, that matches the white curtains and black couch.

Above the table is a Hawaiian designed lampshade and I also put my family pictures to this table which makes me really feel at home. At the other side of the wall is another artwork of a woman with frame, a half naked woman but her breast was covered with her arms wearing blue jeans. It has a sense of stillness to this art and it has a light red small ball in her right side. This was hanged above my sewing machine cabinet. I like the artwork because it vibrates good energy for me. The sewing machine and the cabinet were white.

The wall of this room has a light lavender color that really suit for relaxing with white ceiling paint. It has ceiling fan which is always turn on that gives fresh air and lights hanged on the ceiling.

Over all, the room has a contemporary Asian design with neutral palette floor mat.

I like my room so much because it is clean, fresh and silent. I have the concentrations, focus and sense of stillness. I can decorate in any way I want and change the position of the furniture when I get tired of the old looks.

For me, there are no other places like this that make me feel at home like my home in the Philippines.

             

A sweet and sour of my journey in Maui

             As a young kid I do not have lots of dreams. All I know was playing with my sister Helen and with my childhood friends. Playing those called "shatong", "Birus", "Takyan", "Dampa" to name a few. I also enjoy swimming to the ocean where it is 2-5 minutes walk from our home. I still remember that the ocean was crystal clear with lots of  corals. I sometimes got  the "kinason", this is a shell from the shore and make a soup from it. Sometime due to high tide and rough seas; my cousin Malou, the twin Mabeth and Mavic, my sister Helen and I got curled up through the wave and stumbled to the shore with lots of sands in our shorts. This is how I remember my childhood.
  
              When I turned as adolescence, I was aloof and studies became my past time. And this phase of my life, as adolescent, my dreams were born and mold. I have no specific profession to choose from, all I know was that I want to have a good education. I became determined of what I do as best as I can.

               Thankful I am, for having here in the dreamland that I wasn't and never been expected to be.  For me, being here is enough for me but there are more to it that I still couldn't anticipate and still afraid and scared to take every journey. I observe myself now as  fearful and anxious. I wasn't like this before. Maybe because of facing the unknown world of their high lifestyle. I must upgrade myself to survive. But sometimes, my best wasn't good enough. Doing beyond what others' expectations are not fun and can be very exhausting. All I keep to myself is that I have my own pace in time that life should be light and easy and this mantra gives me strength and all will be well in due time.

                I start going to school again taking as a Registered Nurse and classes will start this coming Monday June 6th. I want to go back to where I am, for sometimes I am feeling tired emotionally, mentally and physically but there's no more turning point. Life must go on and I will take this bravely.


                My life here is sweet and sour. Sweet because I get the peak of my dreams; sour because the adjustment is not easy. My lifestyle change in one moment. But my heart still the same. This is my journey in Maui.