As a young kid I do not have lots of dreams. All I know was playing with my sister Helen and with my childhood friends. Playing those called "shatong", "Birus", "Takyan", "Dampa" to name a few. I also enjoy swimming to the ocean where it is 2-5 minutes walk from our home. I still remember that the ocean was crystal clear with lots of corals. I sometimes got the "kinason", this is a shell from the shore and make a soup from it. Sometime due to high tide and rough seas; my cousin Malou, the twin Mabeth and Mavic, my sister Helen and I got curled up through the wave and stumbled to the shore with lots of sands in our shorts. This is how I remember my childhood.
When I turned as adolescence, I was aloof and studies became my past time. And this phase of my life, as adolescent, my dreams were born and mold. I have no specific profession to choose from, all I know was that I want to have a good education. I became determined of what I do as best as I can.
Thankful I am, for having here in the dreamland that I wasn't and never been expected to be. For me, being here is enough for me but there are more to it that I still couldn't anticipate and still afraid and scared to take every journey. I observe myself now as fearful and anxious. I wasn't like this before. Maybe because of facing the unknown world of their high lifestyle. I must upgrade myself to survive. But sometimes, my best wasn't good enough. Doing beyond what others' expectations are not fun and can be very exhausting. All I keep to myself is that I have my own pace in time that life should be light and easy and this mantra gives me strength and all will be well in due time.
I start going to school again taking as a Registered Nurse and classes will start this coming Monday June 6th. I want to go back to where I am, for sometimes I am feeling tired emotionally, mentally and physically but there's no more turning point. Life must go on and I will take this bravely.
My life here is sweet and sour. Sweet because I get the peak of my dreams; sour because the adjustment is not easy. My lifestyle change in one moment. But my heart still the same. This is my journey in Maui.
When I turned as adolescence, I was aloof and studies became my past time. And this phase of my life, as adolescent, my dreams were born and mold. I have no specific profession to choose from, all I know was that I want to have a good education. I became determined of what I do as best as I can.
Thankful I am, for having here in the dreamland that I wasn't and never been expected to be. For me, being here is enough for me but there are more to it that I still couldn't anticipate and still afraid and scared to take every journey. I observe myself now as fearful and anxious. I wasn't like this before. Maybe because of facing the unknown world of their high lifestyle. I must upgrade myself to survive. But sometimes, my best wasn't good enough. Doing beyond what others' expectations are not fun and can be very exhausting. All I keep to myself is that I have my own pace in time that life should be light and easy and this mantra gives me strength and all will be well in due time.
I start going to school again taking as a Registered Nurse and classes will start this coming Monday June 6th. I want to go back to where I am, for sometimes I am feeling tired emotionally, mentally and physically but there's no more turning point. Life must go on and I will take this bravely.
My life here is sweet and sour. Sweet because I get the peak of my dreams; sour because the adjustment is not easy. My lifestyle change in one moment. But my heart still the same. This is my journey in Maui.
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