My life in a changing world

                The first time I stepped on Honolulu airport, falling in line and waiting for my turn for immigration interview.  The woman who work at the airport whispered and smiled at me saying, "You are so tiny". I just smile back to her......
                
                I am a little tiny creature from far away in south East Asia. I think tiny is adorable. With that physical stature lies behind the hidden power and that is my  attitude of humbleness, friendliness and most of all my determination and sense of purpose. It comes a time when all these qualities were tested and unable to move forward, my tough times come. Where my career wasn't serving me well because it became obsolete and stagnant and I lost my hope. But that is the time when I am more carefree and experience that life still good when you wait the right opportunity. I stay in touch with my friends; I was always free and very generous with my time for them whenever they want to.
              
                 Opportunity do not come to me when I do not look for them, I think it is the same for everyone. I need to knock every door and whatever it opens I need to be wide awake and be sharp to grab it. I just learn to open my sixth sense. Because in my opinion I wasn't have lots of chances way back in previous years. I learn to be patience, and my motto became "Good things come to those who wait." Wait for the right time, right opportunity that is right for me. It never been easy, because I feel useless and powerless.


                With the help of the Angels, I found a little gateway towards achieving my goals. I have been given a chance to come to the U.S to find my luck. As I said, success is not an overnight result. It is the mixtures of patience, lots of patience, trust, faith and unbeatable determination. In my life, I never expected that I will be here in a big world, big world because buildings are high and people are tall literally, their lifestyles are high. It is so scary for me, how can I cope up with this very fast faced and high standard lifestyle. I was just born in a very simple place. A bundle of right attitude should be needed for me to overcome every new trials I'll be encountering. It is more challenging and that others might say life is easy here.

                  I now realize that life is continue changing without prior notice, so keep hold on tight. And keep the faith.

734 significant number

 This is my bank account as you can see at the last three digit.

 My Sewing cabinet, try to look at the numbers....

Check this out too, at the left side check the numbers.

734....
            This was the last three digit of a smart cell phone number from 09184349734, I still remember these numbers after 11 years. These numbers was used by my first serious boyfriend. I did not input his name into my phone-book that time, and I didn't know why. It was year 2000 when I started using cell phone from my sister; the feeling was exciting every time I received text messages especially from this number. It catches my attention immediately the last three numbers  and I know it was him. But at that time our relationship was on the downward spiral. But we tried to keep in touch with each other through texting that somehow we saved our relationship. I am in manila at that time and he was in Davao. But we're not meant to be, because I gave up even though I loved him. I was just felt tired.

              Until this last 2008, this number 734 seems want my attention. Every time I checked or looked at my watch it was 7:34 either morning or night. I think this was just a consequence. I talked to my friend who knows how to read a tarot card and I told him why this number always catches my attention. He advised me to read the book Angel Numbers by Doreen Virtue. So I went to Barnes and Noble booksellers at Lahaina Maui, in front of Lahaina Cannery Mall at the other side of the road, 5 minutes walk from the bus stop. I ride a bus, when it stopped at Lahaina Cannery mall I started to walk with eagerness and I wanted the missing piece of the puzzle be put together. As I approached to the store I really dig into myself what these number means. I checked if they have this book available. I asked the staff and gave the book's title and author's name. So the staff guides me where it piles. I was so thrilled; my heart was pounding. I saw the book and stared at it for a while, I was intensely nerve but eagerly look at it. I grabbed the book and started opens it. I scanned  the pages until I found this number... 734. The book has an explanation to every number that designated to it with its own meaning, I did not read it all it's meaning  for I was hurriedlly search and was thrilled to find these 734 number combination. There I found it and started to read it. I did not memorized exactly what it wrote but sounds like. "You do not have to worry every journey you will be taking."

Angel Numbers 101 by Doreen Virtue Format: Paperback Angel Numbers 101 clearly explains how to receive accurate messages from your angels and heavenly loved ones whenever you see repetitive number sequences on telephone numbers, license plates, receipts, clocks, and such. Every message is completely updated for increased accuracy in understanding your angels’ messages.

http://www.hayhouse.com/adv_results.php?author=doreen+virtue&format=1&ref=84&n=2

In this year 2008 also, my papers were started to process going to Japan and here in the U.S.
               
              There are lots of phenomenon that this number reappears to me, one time I tried to weigh myself on a scale and I've got 73.4lbs ;). I have picture on it, but I forgot what memory card I was using.

                There are  deeper more than that. I did not realized that I used number 4 since 2004 from my email add of s**********4@hotmail.com and s*************4@yahoo.com. And I've got my nerve when I discovered the 7 and the 3. These 7 and 3 signifies two persons that are part and very special in my life. I did not know if these all were only a consequential phenomenon. Or might the angels sending me message through these numbers. All I know was that I now unlock the mystery behind this significant numbers in my life.

Tuesday, May 31, 2011 @ around 8:30 pm Hawaii time we have dinner with some folks in the house. We have Italian spaghetti, salad and garlic bread. I used parmigiano reggiano shredded parmesan cheese for our spaghetti. I bought this a couple of weeks ago at Costco Kahului. As I put it to the table, I noticed the date and time on the container. As you can see the time on it at the right side of the container it's 07:34. I was just silent and I know Angels are watching over me. I hope they're not get angry for revealing this here.

As of 11/07/2013
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Is anyone knows exactly your batch number when you have your receipt? I bet you're not, but if you do please tell me. Or you may be a cashier, but in that case does any of your customer ask for the exact batch number that s/he wants to appear in her/his receipt? 

In my case please don't kid me. I got the receipt for my computer repair. Please don't kid me again, the batch number appears my angel numbers and hey keep reminding me. 

Well anyway, it might not important to you. But my angels keep reminding me. 

Is anyone can explain or I am obsess with this number ... look at the pageviews on the photo below.

 

Trip to Japan and America

This is according to my own experiences and observations only. Whatever word I may use that restrict or prohibit either these two countries is free from future conflict.
                 
                  Since I was 13years old, when my sisters went to Japan and when they'll come back home they bring presents that were really very new to me. And that really excite me most due to new to my sights and tastes and the smell of the boxes and luggage. I was very happy. I hear the Japanese language too from the tapes and cd's they bring. I used to try to learn a little bit of those words that became the songs to my heart. Since then Japan became near to my heart. It's like a second home for me.

                   My eldest sister told me to accompany her daughter going to Japan, I never hesitate to say yes. I visited Japan for the first time last June 2008, I was so very happy not only I have a chance to visit the country but also I am going to see and meet my family too. My eyes wide open as I pass every corner of the road I passed by. And I live with excitement everyday. Sending my niece to her new school everyday is not a problem for me, it is a little far from where we stay. It is my joy and pleasant experience to see new places of Tokyo.
                 
                  For the first time I ride the Japanese bus with my niece and nephew, my niece Wyndel and I cannot speak the Japanese language fluently. So my nephew  Mitsu will be our tourist guide and the speaker. He is 7 or 8years old then.  The first thing that I observe inside the bus was that they are very silent. The commuters need to turn off  or put to silent mode their cellular phones. The schedule of the bus was on time. The roads are clean, very organized and in order. They are the nicest people that I could ever imagine in my whole life. Japanese has older people than the younger one as I observe in the streets. 

                   At the train station, I couldn't imagine there's an elevator going underneath the soil. I think 5th floor from the ground to underneath it. Wow, amazing for me. At the escalator all I observed was that, all the people that not in a hurry should be at the left side so that giving chance to those in a hurry can pass by. Wow, it's amazing for me again they are really in order. I saw the police that there's no gun, they used bat only. You may wonder what I say, I just live in little town that was very different in terms of modernization and innovation.
                 
                   Anyways, let's go back  to my topic. I visit the Shinagawa aquarium with my family; my sisters in Shizuoka and Toyota also visit Tokyo just to be with us. Shizuoka is a 2hrs ride by shinkanzen. And Toyota is a 4hrs ride by shinkanzen too. I and my family went to Tokyo Disneyland and have lots of fun.

                   Early morning we went to Mount Fuji, a tourist spot. I forgot all the dates. But I visited some places of Tokyo, They say I shouldn't miss the Tokyo tower and the Temple so I did went there with them.
         
                   Feb. 7, 2009 6:30am my first landing at Honolulu soil. My first thinking was this is my journey. This is where Late and former president Ferdinand Marcos was. At 3:30pm I arrived at Maui and an hour going to where I stay. It's been a long flight. Iwas a little tired.
           
                  Feb. 21, 2009 went to California, all places was new to me. Unfortunately it was not a long visit so I couldn't have lots of observations. Back to Maui after a week, and start my transition here. People are very independent, they have their own car. Life is very accessible for them but for me not. So I tried to go by bus and I buy my own buss pass. Inside the bus was so noicy, I hear different kind of languages . There are folks from Germany, India , China but mostly Japanese.
         
                   All I can say is that Japan is a nice place; it has a nicest people in my own observation. Very discipline individual. The only situation that I can not excel in Japan I think is that, I need to study their writings and language. Not like here in the U.S, English was taught already in early years of school.

Crawling beneath my veins

                    Life for me is not always easy. Wherever I go, challenges follow me. Sometimes I think challenges love me or I love challenges in life, either way still confused me. But the latter I think is  clearer.  When life is easy for me I feel boring....

                     My mind was so scattered and cluttered of which way to go. I've been do this and do that, been there done that attitude. I have no contentment before, until my life is a mess. I am hunger for more.  The more I struggle in any areas of my life the more problems come my way, It is like a knot tangling and needed to be untangle carefully, so that it will not break or split . Faith and personal relationships failed, stumbled to the ground and feels like no one needs me and everybody hated me. So stubborn, self centered, I am on my own opinion. Feel strong outside very weak inside.  I thought this is the way I am.  That is ego that ruin my life.

                     Until I feel sudden shift of thinking, in that moment. I feel the bottom of nothing but I find serenity at the same time. It is about what I really want  to enjoy what life has to offer, for I believe that the universe is so abundant that can give anything all I've desire in a good way, so I let HIM lead my way and totally surrender to HIM. The destiny and the journey meet half way; It comes to my mind a lot of questions. Do I need to stay and to stuck to the destiny or traveling through my own journey. I choose the journey of more challenging yet fulfilling life I hope. So, crawling beneath my veins towards a happy life is my everyday, life long journey. Choosing to be happy and contented is a gift. Touching life and radiating happiness is now my mission that someday I can be a better person each day of my life, to make a better place for my love one and other people. Peace, unity, love and respect value more than any other materials in this world. 

Outlive Your Beast Life

Hoping to be a superhuman, as immortal as can be? But no one can escape from the trials, hardships and difficulties in life, whoever and wherever you are, would it be emotional, physical, spiritual, mental, and financial state. One or the other connected on a different level at different times, or same time at different level like a tissue or a series of electric current connected each other. When you switch the button, one area will be affected.

On emotional level, there are multiple factors that will  affect how we feel, how we act and react that leads to mental and spiritual turmoil and physical illnesses. These factors such as family and love problems, These can be very exhausting situations that your energy level becomes lesser and lesser. Until you feel depressed. You can suffocate yourself when too much to handle, the heavy burden or excess baggage that you always carry. You might say I can't do this anymore, I can not handle this anymore, and this is too much. And  try to escape by suicide. Suicide is not an option. Though, how hard life may seem to be and endless trials will hit you. Until you feel you want to surrender because no one or nobody is there for you to understand,  you alone have the control of your own. Be standstill and be strong, think that the bad situation you have shall come to pass.

Same as in financial matters, this contribute to our difficulties when our material need not met. When debts are higher than the income salary. Too much worry turn to anxiety. When you know how to manage financially even how small it is, you still feel the freedom of it. Use your money wisely or else money will use you. Money has no brain but you do. There are lots of examples for these and you can observe it anywhere from the neighborhood to the world. Some went to bankruptcy and turn their prosperity to financial struggles that result to emotional  stresses, too much emotional stresses will result to physical illnesses. Avoid getting ripped off. When our wants and needs met, then we are happy and satisfy.


So you may ask yourself how to outlive your beast life.

But, once you are on your own and focusing of what happen in this moment or you analyze the situations consciously, your emotions and thinking to that situation, you can find solutions more easily when you are more relax and focus.


You can find a private place from your home or any place where you feel very comfortable and you can feel your presence where you can ruminate. Yes, feel your presence even for a little while. You sometimes forget yourself through a fast paced lifestyle due to many concerns regarding the bills to pay, your responsibilities and obligations and the demands from your family or surroundings that eat almost all of your time. Take time out wherever you are, either  you are inside the mall or inside the car. Or whatever you are doing either in a middle of a meeting or doing your laundry. Most important is to be aware and always conscious of your energy that you are radiating to the universe.  Always connect to the Creator for divine guidance.

Forgive yourself and forgive others, it is easier said than done as we usually hear. Not just because were not perfect you make it a reason. It is easier when your heart is free from all the negative forces. Identify  how and why you feeling like that. Look deeply inside the core of your being; the self. Get rid all of your old  habits of negative thinking, let go or release any unhealthy thoughts that accumulate into your mind. Release the toxic that kills your happiness. Throw and toss all the junks that stay in your mind that that's been there long time. Change your ways and patterns of your thinking into a more positive and dynamic one.

Breath deeply, air is for free so why not grab a chance to breathe deeply. Have fun and enjoy while you observe the inhale and exhale, appreciate the air that you breathe. That is the gift from the universe. As you inhale invite or welcome the good energy, while you exhale release all the negative.


Sleeping is also one of the best solutions. Sleep early as you usually do, you not only forget those problems but also rejuvenates, refreshes and recharge you the next day.


When you align yourself to the energy field of the universe you will attract good people, good situations and your desires will be met when you vibrate good energy.

Always find what really important to you and what makes you happy. When you find the balance within yourself, channel that energy always and carry that inner peace  for whatever trials will hit you again  you are stronger than you think.

Additional helpful reading:
The Power of Now by: Echart Tolle

My old passion Rekindle

               My aunt Linda called me a voracious reader and I admit it. I've been a wide reader, as long as my eyes will not surrender.  I can read a book in a day  or two if that really interest me. I am good in reading but not in writing. I know,  I have a passion in writing but due to fear of grammatical error it limits me to express myself in writing.  Since then, in my college days I keep my diaries. I call it diary in younger years for I wote it in daily basis and journal now a days for I wrote once in awhile and for formality and maturity. My old passion in writing rekindle as this become my past time.

                Writing is my past time second to reading. I feel relax when I express myself through writing and it can be anything. From sweet stories to real situations. I have bunch of diaries in my college days and only one left; I still keep it for 15years now. When I went to the Philippines last February for 1 month vacation to celebrate my birthday with my family and friends, and as I read it on sweet memories back. And the person that I keep writing about or the subject in that diary is my college crush that we have just meet personally while I was there. It was such a nice experience for me after long years of hiding feelings, we have a chance to talk and bond with other college close friend.  Well, I will consider it a very special moment.

Shebee, one of my college friend and best buddy.  She recently work at Macondray.

             
                   Continuing my passion in writing which I love doing before. A notebook that I have right now is my journal, before I having it here in my blog. But  blog site is a new tool for me in these hi-tech generations, keeps me excited. Here I can write cleanly and neatly, for I can edit the grammars quickly not like writing in a notebook.  The negative effect on this online journal is that I am more exposed to the radiations and it's  unhealthy for my eyes. I know you might say it is very weird to wear sunglasses inside the house and in front of the computer and that's what I'm doing right now, whew I feel weird myself too. This is the only way I can enjoy and stand long, in front of the computer. This passion in writing helps me relax and helps me express my feelings in my own terms.
               
                 Lastly, I am open to constructive critics. Whatever you find error to my grammar please help me correct and let me know. I appreciate most your comments.

                Thanks guyz and have a good one.