Life for me is not always easy. Wherever I go, challenges follow me. Sometimes I think challenges love me or I love challenges in life, either way still confused me. But the latter I think is clearer. When life is easy for me I feel boring....
My mind was so scattered and cluttered of which way to go. I've been do this and do that, been there done that attitude. I have no contentment before, until my life is a mess. I am hunger for more. The more I struggle in any areas of my life the more problems come my way, It is like a knot tangling and needed to be untangle carefully, so that it will not break or split . Faith and personal relationships failed, stumbled to the ground and feels like no one needs me and everybody hated me. So stubborn, self centered, I am on my own opinion. Feel strong outside very weak inside. I thought this is the way I am. That is ego that ruin my life.
Until I feel sudden shift of thinking, in that moment. I feel the bottom of nothing but I find serenity at the same time. It is about what I really want to enjoy what life has to offer, for I believe that the universe is so abundant that can give anything all I've desire in a good way, so I let HIM lead my way and totally surrender to HIM. The destiny and the journey meet half way; It comes to my mind a lot of questions. Do I need to stay and to stuck to the destiny or traveling through my own journey. I choose the journey of more challenging yet fulfilling life I hope. So, crawling beneath my veins towards a happy life is my everyday, life long journey. Choosing to be happy and contented is a gift. Touching life and radiating happiness is now my mission that someday I can be a better person each day of my life, to make a better place for my love one and other people. Peace, unity, love and respect value more than any other materials in this world.
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